My husband started this morning by casually mentioning that maybe it's time for me to start looking for a job. Hmmm... What a way to start the day! The idea of getting a job here is frought with a myriad of emotions: fear, stress, longing, helplessness. It's not that I don't want a job — I think having a place to go every day to gainfully contribute to society would be good for me. I would meet people, build a social network, feel like my days have purpose. Not to mention, it would really help out with our finances. The problem is, jobs that are tailor made for my situation just don't seem to be available.
I love teaching, and I look forward to the day when I can get back into the classroom again. Unfortunately, that doesn't seem to be an option here, since the school district is not even hiring for the supply list. I have checked into retail at a few places. I would be happy to spend a few hours each day while my kids are in school working in a bookstore or something similar. A number of stores are actively hiring, but only for evenings and weekends, which Chris and I agree would not be good for our family. I am well qualified for tutoring or working at a learning center, but that poses the same problem as the retail industry. I loved my job teaching preschool, but since junior kindergarten is public in Ontario, that isn't really an option either, and I cringe at the idea of working in a daycare again. Finding a job opportunity where I could work from home would be ideal, but would eliminate the social benefits of having a job.
I spent an hour searching on-line this morning, and didn't come up with any good options. Okay, so maybe I'm too picky, but any mom's job really does have to be able to support the family dynamic. I think it is time to start actively praying about it and seeing what God may have for me here. I am sure it is not a problem I can solve on my own, and I'm looking forward to seeing what He has in store. The last time I felt like this was just before I came up with the idea for the preschool, so I know there is something around the corner. I love being a stay-at-home-mom, but staying home all the time isn't really for me. I need an outlet. I wonder what it will be?